Post by Itsaki on Jun 7, 2009 12:53:07 GMT -5
Look, I'm pouring my heart out on this, writing and explaining things that I never even wanted to mention in the Roman alphabet. I figure youi're all my friends and [hopefully] shouldn't hold too many criticizing behaviors or such against what I write following. I don't even care if you read this, or even if you care what's written, just know I have enough trust in faith in you all not to hold anything bad against me. Now, mostly to Kaye, tese are the things that I have been writing in runes, as well as other things that have decidded to catch my attention recently in writing (Things that I've written). These are a few of the things that have caused me so much pain recently. So please don't get all condescending on me.
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I'm sick and tired of constantly being underestimated. I'm sick and tired of people telling me what I can and cannot do. It makes me feel weak, helpless. Being told these things makes me want to hurt someone, kill someone, just to prove my worth, my strength. I want to hurt someone, fight someone. The urge to fight, the urge to make someone bleed, grows within me everyday. If I can't make someone else feel pain, I want to feel pain enough to drive the urge from my mind, make me feel useless again.
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And I'm also sick of people treating me like a little kid. When it comes to doing things, apparently everyone is so much better at everything than I. There's apparently nothing that I can do by myself. Everyone else has to be so condescending, so patronizing. I hate it when people have to give me tips and tell me that I'm doing everything wrong, and that they're so much more experienced at everything. I'm not as immature as everyone makes me out to be. I really do know how to do some things, I'm not a helpless imbecile. I don't need people to hold my hand through everything I do. All I want is for people to treat me with at least some respect, at least I deserve that, right?
There are others that I would rather post elsewhere (Kaye) if you wish to search for more of my dilemmas and problems.
1.
I'm sick and tired of constantly being underestimated. I'm sick and tired of people telling me what I can and cannot do. It makes me feel weak, helpless. Being told these things makes me want to hurt someone, kill someone, just to prove my worth, my strength. I want to hurt someone, fight someone. The urge to fight, the urge to make someone bleed, grows within me everyday. If I can't make someone else feel pain, I want to feel pain enough to drive the urge from my mind, make me feel useless again.
2.
And I'm also sick of people treating me like a little kid. When it comes to doing things, apparently everyone is so much better at everything than I. There's apparently nothing that I can do by myself. Everyone else has to be so condescending, so patronizing. I hate it when people have to give me tips and tell me that I'm doing everything wrong, and that they're so much more experienced at everything. I'm not as immature as everyone makes me out to be. I really do know how to do some things, I'm not a helpless imbecile. I don't need people to hold my hand through everything I do. All I want is for people to treat me with at least some respect, at least I deserve that, right?
There are others that I would rather post elsewhere (Kaye) if you wish to search for more of my dilemmas and problems.